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56 comments
Trooppetrie
September 24, 2012 at 6:52 am (UTC -4)
I am so sorry, I still sometimes wonder where she is. I still want to remind new visitors that my cat scratches.
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:21 am (UTC -4)
Pam – you understand… it is so hard…
Marg
September 24, 2012 at 8:07 am (UTC -4)
Big hugs to you and Marc. It is so hard when they aren’t there. It just hurts so much. We understand, that is for sure.
Have a good week. Get that kitchen done.
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:23 am (UTC -4)
Marg – thanks… It really is so hard.. we knew it would be, but we didn’t realize it would be this rough… we are having a very difficult time… The kitchen is a good distraction, and little by little we are getting there, although the major work doesn’t start for another few weeks.
Brian
September 24, 2012 at 9:08 am (UTC -4)
Yes, we know how it is as well and we all miss Alex soooooo much. He does live on because you think of him. Mega hugs.
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:24 am (UTC -4)
Brian – I know you do…. I have said it so many times, but the support and love from you guys made a huge differnce… And every time I see the alex heart with gracie, I smile wide – I (and I know he) feels the love…
Susi
September 24, 2012 at 9:15 am (UTC -4)
It’ll get easier remembering. One day you’ll have a smile on your face remembering Alex used to sit on your bags. We still look back fondly and talk about my parents German Shepard… Sweetheart used to have to drive him around the block a few times before he would get out of our car so we could go home!!! xoxo
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:25 am (UTC -4)
Susi – I know you are right… I just hope that happens soon
Your parents german shepard sounds so cute… I can just picture sweetheart 
!
MaxtheQuiltCat
September 24, 2012 at 9:23 am (UTC -4)
Yes, we understand,…….
Hugs to you …. from Max, Bugsy, Knuckles and HH
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:25 am (UTC -4)
Max – I know you do…
Random Felines
September 24, 2012 at 9:41 am (UTC -4)
It does get easier, but it can be so hard when you suddenly have a moment that is unexpected
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:26 am (UTC -4)
Random – I know… but you nailed it… When the moment is unexpected it is really hard – I basically know my emotional triggers, but sometimes a strange thing sets me off…
caren gittleman
September 24, 2012 at 10:05 am (UTC -4)
((((hugs)))) I am crying….this touched my heart so deeply. We miss Alex too and wish we could help ease the pain. The bottom photo, while adorable, tore me apart.
Even the most simple acts can evoke so much pain.
all of our love……..
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:26 am (UTC -4)
Caren – I am sorry to make you cry…. Really I am – although I cried when I wrote it… The last picture is a hard one to look at – if you notice it is an old one – he still had his tail….
Fuzzy Tales
September 24, 2012 at 10:48 am (UTC -4)
(((Hilary)))
I often think that I actually might take a trip when the boys pass, if I outlive them, but I imagine it would be more heartbreak than fun, fun, fun.
It’s actually taken a full year and a half to really move on from Annie’s passing, even though I still think of her daily, so give yourself the time and space you need.
-Kim
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:28 am (UTC -4)
Kim – a year and a half… you poor thing… I am so sorry… I wouldn’t be suprised if it takes us that long though either. it is so difficult, especially when the connection is so deep… I think that the biggest part with me and marc is it was always the three of us… and now it just feels off…. hugs
Emily
September 24, 2012 at 11:15 am (UTC -4)
Oh, I’m so sorry. Thinking about you —
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:28 am (UTC -4)
Emily – thanks so much…
Deborah
September 24, 2012 at 1:16 pm (UTC -4)
Breaks my heart…..((Hugs))
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:30 am (UTC -4)
Debby – I am sorry… I know you understand….
No Baby Ruth
September 24, 2012 at 1:55 pm (UTC -4)
I’m so sorry for the loss of your boy. I lost my dear cat a while back and for the longest time I would still think i saw him lying in his favorite places. It fades with time, but it never disappears.
Hugs.
(ICLW)
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:33 am (UTC -4)
No Baby Ruth – I have a similar thing – I don’t see him, but I expect to… I keep looking… happy ICLW
Beth Ann
September 24, 2012 at 2:41 pm (UTC -4)
Of course it was horribly hard to pack and know that you would not have Alex sitting on your suitcases (or more likely IN your suitcases). Every “first” will continue to be that—a first but hopefully with time the tears will flow a little less and your heart will hurt a little less. Holding you both in my heart as you continue to miss the little guy.
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:34 am (UTC -4)
Beth Ann – thank you so much sweetie… I am sure next time we travel it will be easier, but we will always get a twinge… It is funny, I dont think alex ever went in our suitcases but he always went on them – and one time he really went on them – if you know what I mean
Old Kitty
September 24, 2012 at 3:17 pm (UTC -4)
Awwwww Hilary!! Now I have leaky eyes!
Alex was such a love, a precious angel.
Take care
x
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:35 am (UTC -4)
Old kitty – sorry for the leaky eyes – i seem to have that effect when I write about alex lately – I have to start sharing some happier stories… He was a love and will always be missed….
lorettarick
September 24, 2012 at 5:59 pm (UTC -4)
So sad for you and Marc but Alex is probably thinking, have a good trip. I will always have someone take care of me where I am now. My thoughts have always been with you both.
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:38 am (UTC -4)
Mom – thanks… I know you are right… Alex always knew we made arrangements when we traveled – and now he has permenant care givers and friends at the ready
silverneurotic
September 24, 2012 at 6:19 pm (UTC -4)
Firsts are always the hardest, but it does get easier.
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:38 am (UTC -4)
Silver – yeah, I know.. but at the time it doesn’t seem that way…
Abby
September 24, 2012 at 6:55 pm (UTC -4)
Hillary
I can’t tell you how many times I think of your sweet boy.
I understand your feelings and you know they hit you at the strangest of times.
There is simply no easy way, no magic pill, no magic button that will make any of different.
We all miss Alex too and tears are coming down my face looking at him on your suitcases.
((hugs))
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:41 am (UTC -4)
Abby – thank you so much for such a sweet comment – I actually read it to marc….It makes me feel so much better to know that others, like you, also miss him. He was a very special boy who was very loved… I wish there was a magic button that we could press (But i wish there was a button for a lot of other things too) but I know that the sadness we feel is just proof of how much we loved that little guy.. hugs back…
Jennifer
September 24, 2012 at 9:11 pm (UTC -4)
Hello from ICLW! Sorry for your loss.
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:43 am (UTC -4)
Jennifer – thank so much – happy ICLW!
Irnee
September 25, 2012 at 7:12 am (UTC -4)
Yeah, all those little things will come to light occasionally. Always tug at the heart, but you take a deep breath and move on. I hope you enjoy your trip! Well deserved! It’ll feel good to get away!
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:45 am (UTC -4)
Irene – thanks.. the trip was great, and it was wonderful to get away – it did help to get out of the house for a while… I know that little things will always come up and be a trigger (in my head) but my heart never expects them…
Stacy Uncorked
September 25, 2012 at 10:37 am (UTC -4)
Awwwwww! Been there, done that. It will get better, I promise. ((HUGZ!!))
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:46 am (UTC -4)
Stacy – I know… everyone who has ever had and loved a pet understands… hugs back!
Annalee
September 25, 2012 at 6:15 pm (UTC -4)
Hi from ICLW,
I’m so sorry for your loss. Pets are part of our families and living without your precious Alex is, I am sure, very difficult. Sending you virtual ((hugs))
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 7:46 am (UTC -4)
Annalee – thanks so much for the virtual hugs – sending you some back! Pets are a huge part of our lives and their love touches us deeply… happy ICLW!
The Teacher's Pets
September 26, 2012 at 9:07 am (UTC -4)
Very sad post! I’m sure you are going to have lots more moments where Alex’s memory will be right in front of you! Let the tears flow and you will heal when the time is right.
hilaryg
September 26, 2012 at 5:00 pm (UTC -4)
April – I am sure you are right… There will be many more memories – hopefully more happy then sad… Time will help, I know….
BigMamaCass
September 27, 2012 at 10:20 am (UTC -4)
{sob}
hilaryg
September 28, 2012 at 6:48 am (UTC -4)
Big Mama Cass –
Yeah… I know…
Janet
September 27, 2012 at 9:59 pm (UTC -4)
Oh Hillary,
I’m sooooo sorry to hear about Alex. I know the pain well of losing a beloved pet, and I’m thinking of you guys. Thanks so much for your kind comment on my blog about all my drama. I’ve been terrible about reading and commenting, but I had to come check in on you after reading your comment, and I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m going to go hug my “babies” now and be happy I have them!
hilaryg
September 28, 2012 at 6:51 am (UTC -4)
Janet – I understand what you have been going through, and you have been on my mind… thank you so much for your kind words too… All loss is hard… Please give your furbabies big hugs from me too…
Journey of Life
September 28, 2012 at 10:06 am (UTC -4)
Oh .. Hilary … I am sorry and I wish I were there to give you a hug …
hilaryg
September 29, 2012 at 8:52 am (UTC -4)
Journey – I wish you were too…
Journey of Life
September 29, 2012 at 10:08 pm (UTC -4)
hilaryg
September 30, 2012 at 7:58 am (UTC -4)
Angela – thanks… I feel the same way!
Lynn McNamee
September 28, 2012 at 7:52 pm (UTC -4)
My dog, Scooby, passed away last December. We got him from a shelter when he was about 2, and he was part of our family for 12 years.
Geez, I’m tearing up just typing this.
I know how you feel.
hilaryg
September 29, 2012 at 9:02 am (UTC -4)
Lynn – I am so sorry about Scooby… and sorry that I made you tear up. It is so difficult to lose a pet…. They are such a big part of our lives and hearts…
Ryker's Boyz 'n' Allie
September 29, 2012 at 1:33 pm (UTC -4)
oh HIlary! We so understand! (Mommy just got a bit leaky after reading this)
We’d all three come over and give you comforting purrs and cuddles if we could – both you & Mark.
This loss stuff SUCKS.
hilaryg
September 29, 2012 at 5:13 pm (UTC -4)
Rykers Boyz ‘n’ Allie – I would gladly accept your cuddles and purrs.. they would so help! We are actually having dinner tonight with a friend who just got a new puppy.. I am so excited for a little furbaby love!!!! You can say “this loss stuff SUCKS” again – and again!
William Kendall
September 30, 2012 at 4:24 pm (UTC -4)
We really do miss them all the more when they’re gone.
hilaryg
October 2, 2012 at 6:27 am (UTC -4)
William – I know.. they make such a mark on our lives and have such a presence…. They are so special…